If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine… Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you.
The day you appeared I lost my heart to you, to love.
And from that day I cannot part from you, from love.
You hold me tight to you, to love.
In my thoughts all day and night of you, of love.
I offer all that I have to give to you, to love.
And all my days I want to live with you, in love.
Well sch is about to start again… Its going to be an even harder semester… Going to take statistics dont know wat tats going to be like… Hope i can cope… But i think its going to be a good thing… At least i wont be stuck hm doing nothing or dont know wat to do anymore for awhile… Miss dar alot… Still dont know if she will be coming over anot… Realli hope tat she can get 1 week off to come see me… I know she is trying to but with her work schedule now being to busy n maybe she getting promoted she cant take leave… But i realli hope tat she can get tat 1 week or so off b4 she go for her probation … Tis is realli the 1st time we have been separated for so long onli contact via phone n sms… Tis is realli putting a test to our relationship… I am afraid tat she might get tired of waiting 1 day n just give up on me… I think she is also afraid tat i might know more ppl here n forget about her… So i here by state tis claim to everyone else so tat anyone tat reads my blog can be my witness… I will not give up on the relationship tat i have with Lin Shiwei… I will love her till the day i stop breathing… I hope tat she sees tis n give our relationship more faith… I know tat she has been realli realli busy n stressed at work due to GSS… But i felt tat she has became cold towards me… I have been having realli realli bad dreams of her going out with someone else already… Tats why she has been cold to me… But i know she wont do tat to me… But its just tis feelings tat i get… She use to ask me wats going on n wat has been happening to me over here in Perth… But its like all of a sudden she just dont care anymore… Is it something tat i said? Or is it something i have done?? Dar if u are reading tis plz… The next time i call u can we have a nice chat about tis?? I realli love n miss u alot… i hope tat u dont keep everything to urself… Although i know tat i am now in Perth n i cant share ur sorrows n be by ur side to support n encourage u… But i will always be there for u dar… No matter where I am… I have the same feelings as well… Ur not here to push me on to study n support me… But u know wat i do?? Whenever i miss u or need ut support i will look at our ring… Look at ur name… then i will kiss our ring… Kissing on ur name as though i am kissing u… Tat gave me the strength to go on… I had alot of times wanted to give up when i was studying during my 1st semester… But u were the 1 who kept me going… Cuz i know tat tis is for us… For u… For our future… I will push on hard… So i hope tat u will wait for me… I know tat 5 yrs is a realli long time… But i hope tat u will wait… Just wanna say… I Love U Dar… N i hope tat u will tok to me more… Send me more emails…. Drop me some comments in frendster… Or just drop me comments in my blog… Realli hope we can pull through tis…
Today is my 24th birthday… Nothing exciting haha spent it at work… Tat sux… But yesterday had a wonderful dinner with Uncle Chin and family… We had bbq… It great!! Kyra bought me a Nike singlet and shan bought me a "black" fighting fish n a realli small aquarium for it hehe…
In a few more days i will be celebrating my 24th birthday… I have been walking n experiencing life for coming 24 years already… Every time tis yr was special… Tis coming 1 as well as it is the 1st birthday away from hm… I am celebrating it in Australia with my Uncle Chin n the family… I am happy tat they are celebrating it for me… But i just feel tat its different… Somehow i dont feel excited about it… Just glad tat at least someone is celebrating it with me… For the past 7 coming 8 yrs there is always someone special who celebrates with me… But tis yr she cant… Tats my GF… I will also be missing her birthday n our 8th yr anniversary… Imagine tat 8th year!! Tats 96 mths! 2920 days!! 70080 hrs!! Its been a long time… Then i found out tat i always treated her badly till now when we are separated due to my studies, it seems like i have learnt how to appreciate her n treat her better… But she is not around for me to do so… But i hope tat when we are together again i will do tat… 8 yrs is a realli realli long time… I dont wanna blow it… I dont wanna let such a wonderful angel walk out on me… So i will work hard n study hard n go back n start my own family with tis beautiful angel… To all my frens n family who do read my blog… Ur are deeply missed by me… N i will work hard n not disappoint anyone…
Yes got my results today!! N guess wat!! I got 2 high distinctions n 1 distinction!! haha My communications got 91, Math was 81 and 79 for my Computing!! Its the best feeling to have to celebrate my coming birthday!! Hell yeah!!
Now is 15/06/07 5am perth… Using work place computer to update my blog… nothing realli much happened These days since i am on holidays now… But got to know my 1st results for tis semester Communications… Its like a english subject… Got i good grade for it… Got 94% for my final exam for tat subject n my lecturer told me tat i was one of the higest scoring in the whole exam hall!!! Made me feel very proud… Due to tat 94% my total percentage for tat subject is 91% not bad for english i think hehe… The rest of the results will be out on the 19th of June… Hope i did not bad… Next thing is about my birthday… 24 yrs i have walked tis world… N for 23 yrs i always have wonderful celebrations n gifts for tis wonderful day… Its was a day which took my mum 10 odd hrs to give birth to me… So i shall mark tis day as a special day to my mum… Thank you for bringing me into tis world… Main point haha… I am going to feel realli realli sad for tis yrs birthday… Cuz i am away from hm… no frens to celbrate with… So i hope i will still try to enjoy tis special day somehow… Maybe celebrate with Uncle Chin, Auntie Leonie and Kyra… They are the onli family i realli have in Australia… And Auntie elma n family too but i am still closer with Uncle Chin… So hope i can still enjoy tis day… Hope the frens i have in SG still remember its my birthday n send me wishes hehe tat will brighten up my day for sure seeing tat i still haven frens who care n remember… So nervous tat the results will be out soon… Hope i do well… I think the best birthday gift now will be getting good grades!!
Had just completed my math exam yesterday… It was tough… i dont think i can get tat fantastic a grade… But i wont stop trying… I still have 2 more exams to go… Comms n Computing… So i am try hard on tis to paper to strike back at my grades… Hope i can do well in the next 2 so tat it can pull my overall grades up… I dont wanna fail… Tis is the 1st time i have put in a lot of effort on something… I dont want it to end so soon when i finally know how important it is… I have gone through alot in is past 23 years of my life… Turning 24, then i realize wat is it tat i truly want… A happy life, making my parents proud, have a family which other ppl will envy at… Lastly is to pave a future for my sister n my children to strive in… Realli worry about my sister… Although i always shout n scream at her as all my frens and family always see… But i am onli doing it for her own good… As i have walked the path she is taking now n i end up being a failure… i dont want her to follow in my foot steps… She still has a lot of room n potential for improvement… I see alot of future in her… So if Jodie u happen to read tis blog post of mine… Plz study hard n make Ma, Pa and me proud… Make everyone proud… Dont always look at wat rewards u will get… Always look at wat will happen in the future if u study hard… It will be more then the gifts n rewards u will be receiving… It is a bright n happy future… Look forward to tat k?? Da ge never bluff u 1…
Did my Communications presentation today… All went well… My grp members Indri and Christina were brilliant… They did an excellent job… And we got to know our results right after all the groups have presented… I got a 28.5/30It was brilliant… I got back my essay today as well… I was so happy when i saw the results!! 34/40!!! Tat was wonderful… Glad tat i was able to pull it off… Now all the test n other stuff are all over… Wats left is the final 3… My final 3 papers… 1 paper on the 4th of june n 2 on the 6th of june… I going to try n go all the way for the touch dwn!! Hope i can make the grade…
Dar i write tis post today is just for u… I want u to meet my frens here in sch…But i dont think u will feel very secure when u see the picture… I may look very close to them but they are just frens… Have faith in me k?? I introduce u Indri from Indonesia and Whye Chung from Malaysia the 1st pic is Indri the second 1 is Whye Chung…
